Today

Well we buried my grandmother today. The rain never came and it was almost like she held it off because she hated it so. It was quite lovely but I have to say I am glad to it is over. This way the healing can begin. I have been battling headaches all week from the stress so I am hoping things will become a little bit more even keel around here for a bit.

We all went out for lunch/dinner afterwards and it was really nice to have everyone there and see what an amazing family we have. We really should treasure these moments as we just don't know how many we will have. Life changes in an instant.

This weekend is going to be so crazy and not looking forward to it. So off I go.

What a sad, very sad weekend.

Well my Saturday started as any other but quickly changed as I got a call from my mom. She said my grandmother was dying and I needed to get to the nursing home as soon as possible. So I dropped Austin off at a birthday party and she offered to keep Colby as well. So I spoke to Jeff and he said he would pick up the boys. So Brady and I headed down to Brentwood to say our good-bye's. We walked in and they had just put her on morphine. She was very frail but knew who we all were and that we were their. She kept saying Brady Brady Brady. Quite slurred and not really with it. But enough to tell us she knew he was there. After Jeff picked up the boys he headed down as well so the boys could also say their good-bye's. One thing that I am all about is being real with my kids and death is a part of life and I think it is important for them to be apart of this as well and not sheltered from it. I think they were greatly for that too.

Anyways she passed away not more than 10 mins after we all left. She waited for the entire family to arrive to say good bye and the minute we left she knew it was time to go. We will not be having a wake as she did not want one. So we will be having a small burial on Tuesday afternoon with only the immediate family as that is the way she would have wanted it.

I am not crying sad as she lived an amazing life and had all her faculties with her until the very end. She lived to see all my boys, my wedding and me grow up to adult hood. She lived before their were cars or electricity. She drove until she was 90 and lived alone until she was 94. Wow what a life she has had. But part of me can't help be a little selfish and say how much I will miss her. She was my favorite of all my grandparents and the one I was the closest too. I am a little lost without her here. I will treasure the amazing memories she has given me over my life and smile whenever I think of her.

I love you Grammy.