Rough Week

As much as I love me family more than myself most days. They have all been stressing me out. 1st Colby's sax, then the attitude, then his grades started to slip. Austin lost his spelling book that we now need to replace, his attitude, the sheer laziness. Brady just his 2 yr old antics.

This week has been a test of my will not to beat them all. I feel all I do lately is yell and fight with them. I am not sure when we crossed the line from loving to have them around and missing them so much while they were at school to dreading 4 pm because I know I will hear the bus any second. Everything has become a fight of colossal proportions. From dinner, to homework, to cleaning there own messes and room. They are nasty to each other and everyone else around them. I know this is par for the course but I am running on reserve power and I feel like it is about to shut down.

I think Jeff knows that I am hanging on by a thread so he offered to take the two older boys tonight and go do something with them so I can go out with my girls. I am not sure if they realize how much they have been the glue that is holding me together lately. Jen helped so much last week by rocking Brady to sleep as he was on my last nerve and she did it not even knowing how much she helped advert a potential snapping moment. Liz she has been the humor in my life lately that I have seemed to have lost and boy do I appreciate it. Tammy is the respect in my life that somehow no one in this house can seem to muster. Rachael where do I even begin she is the silent wall that I have been leaning against to hold me up and get me through these trying days. She doesn't need to say a word but I always know she is a phone call away if I were to need her to lean against. Never in all my days did I realize in my life that I could be so blessed to have friends that are as incredible as the girls I have in my life. I must have done something right somewhere along the line because I have been sooo blessed and they are the glimmers of light that have been getting me through.

So you all have done such minor things that have made such a major impact and all it required was all of you being yourselves. You are all amazing and I am incredibly honored to have you all as my friends.